I don’t know how I got stuck with this shift but somehow I got scheduled for an overnight shift. So I probably won’t be leaving Victoria Secrets till the crack of dawn but if I get tired and people piss me off I’ll be like fuck it and bounce
“Focusing your life solely on making a buck shows a certain poverty of ambition. It asks too little of yourself. Because it’s only when you hitch your wagon to something larger than yourself that you realize your true potential.”—Barack Obama
Over this past year I called myself making many changes in my life that thought would benefit me in the future and also make my life much easier and better a lot of the situations I had going on. I feel as if for the most part things have been going well I cut certain people out of my life that i felt was dead weight and was nothing but headache and trouble which has just about ended a lot of the stress that was going on. But then the situation with trying to fix my relationship i felt i did all that would be beneficial and also make things better between both me and my girl. I feel the long distance played a major role just being several states away her back in NY & me ATL caused some type of rift because whenever around each other there’s was never any drama,arguments just good times with me being around someone i can say i truly loved and still do for more than her physical beauty but also her inner as well.Her personality was one of a kind which drew me even closer and attracted to her even till this day. Somewhere down the line things took a turn for the worse you could say which led to myself going about finding and making changes in life over the time we took just get ourselves together i figured the only way to show this girl you really care is by taking the initiative to make changes to become the man she needed in her life and become the man that would make me a better person for the future. Even though it didn’t work out whenever we talk still seems like a open window(a small one) for us to one day get back together and restore the great relationship we once had. Even we i sat her down this past summer to get what i needed off my chest it felt good to share with her what i been through,what I’ve done, and where I’m trying to go in life. She said she could see the growth in me and the things she was looking for i displayed but wasn’t sure if she was ready to be in a relationship or “take steps backward” but felt maybe I’m the one for her. I’m not one to be a leach and all thirsty so from time to time I check up on her to make sure all is good and she’ll do the same from time to time. So it will be interesting to see where we go from her on out with this being my final year or school, Our relationship has gotten a lot better though but one thing i hope for is that our communication wouldn’t be so rare but i don’t know how to make that so with out seeming all suffocating because i could go a while being good and then when she on my mind she really on my mind and I’m mostly reminded of her through music or by something we shared coming up. Sometimes i feel like a sucka for how strong my feelings are for her but she’s well worth it and like they say “if loving you is wrong i don’t wanna be right” and no matter what happens between us or where we go in life she will always be babygirl to me.
Been up at this phuckin school all day trying to take care of what needs to be done and these mother phuckers lost all my paperwork they made me redo again for the second time today.it’s now 6pm and still haven’t got shit accomplished